“Life may not be the party that we hoped for… But while we’re here, we should dance.”
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Christmas
New Years Resolution
'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says
This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.
I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?
It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second story is about love and loss.
I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.
This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
Thank you all very much.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Sleepovers
What do you think about them? I had oodles of sleepovers when I was a kid and lots of fond memories from them. I had a great group of friends and we never got into any trouble. I always looked forward to having my future girls have the experience of sleep overs....That is until I got talking to my SIL. They have a no sleepover policy. They have lateovers- I think that this is a great idea. Then I read this article. No sleepovers for our family, but we do still allow cousin sleepovers within our family.
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Tell me what you think about them.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Christmas gifts!
Thanks so much to Bonnie for her creativity and showing how to make these on her blog!
(I just used regular printer paper)
****Then you scrunch your paper up and then flatten back out
****Then spray it with this (purchased at Roberts with half off coupon!)
I spray painted them black and then sanded the edges for a great look.
Birthday/Baptism
He turned 8 on the 3rd of December
We celebrated his birthday at home with presents and cake and ice cream.
We are so blessed that Chandler is in our lives!
We are so grateful that Chandler has made this choice.
He is such a special boy and we love him very much.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Holidays!
For HALLOWEEN I ended up taking all four kids to the school carnival and trick-or-treating by myself because Kent had a big project due that weekend. We had lots of fun and the kids were actually really good for me. The kids looked cute- of course! Chandler was GI Joe, Kezalee was a witch, Aly was Eeyore and Deegan had a cute Halloween onesie. All-in-all we had a great time.
This past week we had a great time at my parents house for THANKSGIVING. The kids had a whole week off of school so on Tuesday we headed over to the Valley. Of course Kent had projects to do so he didn't come until Thursday morning. Tuesday and Wednesday I had a fun day crafting with my SILs. We made super cute bows for the girls hair and cute aprons to help with our culinary talents! -I wish we would have gotten a picture of us all! :(
Thursday was a day filled with yummy food and lots of family. I love being with my family!

Friday my brother Tyson got his mission call. He is going to the
Lansing, Michigan mission---Spanish speaking
We are excited for him. Now all three brothers that have gone on missions will speak Spanish. I am so thankful for all that I have been given and this holiday season. I can't wait for Christmas and hope that Kent gets a break from school!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Family- Where life begins and love never ends
A Name and a Blessing
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
To Coupon or not to Coupon?
Friday, September 11, 2009
Deegan Michael Dance

I just wanted to take a minute and journal about our new addition! This is mainly for me so that I have something to look back on.
The morning of the 25th of August,I started having contractions about 12:30a.m. and decided to start timing them when my water broke at about 1 am. So I got up and called the hospital to let them know I would be coming in in a few hours and called my mom. She was so great to come and help the kids get to school. Luckily school for my brother and sister didn't start until the next day so it worked out perfect for my mom to come. So after I called her I took a shower, tidied up the house and got the kids lunches ready. Then I picked up the fourth Twilight book that I just had started reading and read for the next couple of hours while I waited for my mom to come. She got here at about 5 am and we talked for about an hour before Kent and I decided to finally go to the hospital. I was debating on going in because I was not having any contractions. We went in because it had been 5 hours since my water broke. So we got to the hospital and after we got checked in and they checked me (I was dilated to a four)they had me walk around and sit on the birthing ball. Nothing. So Kent slept and I continued to read Twlight (man those books suck you in) while we waited for my contractions to pick up. Finally at noon they checked me again and I was still at a four so they decided to start me on pit. By 3 p.m I was dilated to a 7 and all thoughts of natural childbirth had gone out the window. So I got my epidural (what was I thinking waiting so long!) and I had Deegan at 3:30p.m! The cord was wrapped around his neck which they think is why it took so long to get me going and caused him some stress during labor. He was a little purple for a minute, but pinked up nicely! My nurse-midwife did a great job. I have never been so pain free after having a baby. We are so blessed to have this little guy in our lives and don't know what we would do with out him!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
First Day of School!
We got to start a couple of days earlier than the other schools around. Here is some pictures of their first day!
August

I can't believe how August has flown by! The above picture is how I started out the month. I had my 10 year high school reunion. I can't believe it has been so long. I really didn't want to go, but couldn't come up with a good enough excuse to stay home. I ended up having a good time and seeing some friends that I haven't seen in years. I wish that more of the goup that I ran around with could have come, but it was fun to see those that I did!
The rest of the month has been busy with another session of swimming lessons and then getting ready for school. Along with all of this I have pretty much gotten everything ready for the baby. I just hope that he doesn't like it too much in there and decides to go full term. I am too use to having pre-term babies. I will go crazy if I have 3 more weeks!
July

Along with visits from friends and family we also took the kids to Lava Hot Springs. We had a blast. We went on a Tuesday, so it was not crowded and during the week they have their $20 family pass. Our friends, the Willis Family met us there. I hope we make it a tradition for every summer.

Of course we always have a couple of trips to Cress Creek during the summer!
Monday, July 13, 2009
June
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Happy Birthday Aly!
Monday, June 29, 2009
In case you were wondering...
--Our contract was up on our lease and we found out that the house we were in was in foreclosure so we decided to move to where we live now "temporarily" while we were waiting for the baby.--
Then around the first of June, Kent was talking to the advisor at the school and she asked Kent if he had considered online- well up until June his degree was not offered online- so no, we hadn't thought about it. She was looking at how much we would have to take out in Student loans and let us know that we would save over $30,ooo in loans if he would switch to online. Honestly I was DEAD against online. I had just spend the last 2 or 3 months getting use to the idea that we were moving across the country and leaving our family for 3 years and was actually exited! We were also not sure about online. I have heard that it is harder because you have your own schedule and we wondered about the quality of the education. But, after a lot of prayer, we decided that we are going to save ourselves from an even higher student loan payment when he is done and get his degree online. This will allow Kent to start in July and not have to wait until the baby is born. It is a 30 month program for a Bachelor's so Kent is going to still be very busy and we will have a lot of adjusting to do! So for now, those of you in Idaho are stuck with us. We have decided to keep renting where we are (thanks Roman and Julie) and we really do love it! We have a great back yard with a ton of trees, privacy and great neighbors. The kids will be going to a great school and have already made friends. I am still doing Real Estate and I now work for a local company as a negotiator with the banks for properties they are purchasing.
So after Kent graduates- then I guess we will hit the road... unfortunatly NO jobs in Idaho for computer animators.
Well, sorry that this was long and I know that this post has not enriched anyone's live, but now you know! Wish us luck.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Photography Contest
I have been thinking a lot about family pictures with the soon(but not soon enough) arrival of our new addition. So who wouldn't love a free session? Check out this great blog http://simplybephoto.com/wordpress/ and enter for your own chance to win! Good luck to you all.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Weddings, Graduations and Memorial fun!







































